Life is "Unknowable;" So Then What about Feeling...

It is the illusion of duality that has enabled the human being to perceive what he or she is. It is the duality which has enabled the human being to experience what it is to experience the other. So through this bless the duality. But it is the mind which has attributed ironclad names, symbols, and categories to the differentiation we perceive within the realm of the duality. And in this mind, because we have an incessant need to categorize, our identification schemes divide us from each other. I mean there could be "categorization" without division, but it is because we identify with these "intellectual" categorizations (I am white, this person is black, that is a tree, that is an ocean etc) that we get lost in our identifications. Our identifications, which build up our egos, are the mental "things" that becomes our illusion. Yet although duality was created so that we could experience another, we have lost our focus because we live strictly through the mind. And now the "illusion" is lost for we become tied to our thoughts about things. The "illusion" of duality than becomes "real.". No longer is life the majestic illusion, no longer is it a wonder. Now life has become "real," it is mundane, it is understandable through word...But is it really? Can we totally understand it through word, through idea, through mind? It cannot. For feeling escapes the grasp of word. It drives us, and makes complete "sense." That is because we feel it, not think it.>! Yet, mind controls the ebb and flow. It devises the rules and the way we live...

This goes hand in hand with the patriarchal society that has developed. For the "logical" and "rational" way of perceiving and being has influenced the current social developments, both social and technological. We employ logic and its cunning wonder, but we have forgotten the feminine aspects of being, the sensing, the intuition, and the like and in this we have forgotten that the duality is an illusion (and really that we are one - because we all sense, we all feel, and we are connected through this...We all sense and feel the same thing, but we certainly do not "think" we are the same thing...think about that...(think to understand that thinking leads to division)...As it stands now, everything is "real," everything is "understandable" through word and logic. But of course it is not...There is a wonder, an excitement, of which is indescribable, of which it is too live, to sense,to feel, and we certainly cannot understand the entirety of feeling...for feeling is the journey...it is what pushes us to walk a certain path...and we don't always know why...for we shouldn't...but we obsess to know...for we are "trained" to only live through the the mind...and through this process we have forgot that not everything is knowable, not all is "real" in the sense that we know it...

What do I necessarily mean that the duality is an illusion, or that we can see it or not see it as an illusion (going back to paragraph number one)? Well for one, because we do not see the illusion, because we believe that the mind has "proven" that all is random, that all is physical, and that feelings are nothing but creations of the physical mind and the neurotransmitters that communicate with nerve endings in the mind, we forget to realize that life is essentially "unknowable" - in terms of feeling and sensing...For we are to sense feelings, not think our feelings. Did we forget to realize that the emotional aspects of life, their origins, their functions, and role within our lives were beyond the grasp of thought (in its entirety at least)?

Have we not de-empathized the feeling aspect of our lives? It is rationality that tells us psychic-ness is not real (or maybe religion does that; because religion in the dogmatic sense is another thought paradigm), it is rationality and logic that tells us that 1 + 1 = 2, but what about the fact that 2 is 1 and that 1 is 2...because the "all" is inherently connected. One can only understand One because of the other (making the 2)...and two, when merged into wholeness becomes one (the 1)...But this is feeling...this is beyond logic and "makes no sense." The math doesn't "work" here, but does it have too? And back to what I was saying before...does the illusion need to make "logical" sense... can we not just sense it?! and not Logic "IT."

Essentially, the more we realize that feelings are not to be completely known in the mind, do we allow them to walk us into the moment of NOW. We then allow them to take us into the journey of our lives and enjoy each moment as it unfolds. Yes, there are things that are not "perfect" in your life right now...But is it really "not perfect." Or are we just thinking that...hmmm, Have I lost myself here...or does this just make a lot of damn sense.... remember I am talking about "sense" now, not being "logically sound."

The Cosmic Family

The closing in on "time" will bring us closer to our true nature. As we become more aware of the stillness which is the NOW, we become connected through feeling. If all is connected, if all is interwoven, how can anything be bound to time? Of course, there is a separation between the past, present, and future, but this is only understood through thought. Of course the past is still alive, for we can witness it now through the remains of yesterdays creations, but in the grand perception of things these three realms (past, present, and future) mend together to become witnessed as the eternal moment of now. For what was in the past lives it self through the creations that surround us today, and what will be the future will only be an extension of what is right now. So the past, present, and future are united. This is where time stops as we understand it (as a means of division)...Now we can understand this conceptually, but this is really a feeling experience. And it comes when the mind is quieted and has stopped categorizing everything that it witnesses. Yet all of this is a choice...

Yet, the duality, as much as it is a hindrance to our awakening (that is if we are unconscious to its purpose) it inherently is a blessing. For duality is the cornerstone of our mind dominated way of living. Living with a conceptual understanding of things is what separates us from the "animals." But it is only through experiencing the separation of our individualness can we evolve and grow so that we can experience the communion between all on a very deep level. For example, how are we to know pleasure without pain, how are we to know good without bad. The duality will always exist, but the whether or not we let it tether us to an existence were we see ourselves as not connected, where we see that we are not part of the weave which is nature, is a choice. We can choose to live in the blessed illusion that was set before us at the dawn of Adam and Eve and be "unconscious", or we can evolve to a place where we witness, through feeling, that you and I are the same. Is there not supreme joy in knowing that everything you see, everyone you meet is part of your cosmic family? Would we not build a more harmonious society if the foundation of our choices as a society honored this experiential feeling? I will say... that I LOVE YOU ALL for what you are, all that you will be, and all that you could be!

The love you have for another inevitably becomes the love you create for yourself. Even when we live our lives primarily through the rustling and bustling of our minds does our essence, the soul level of our being, know this inherent reciprocity and make its way through the filter of thoughts. Because if you do for another you feel a sense of joy in your heart. You did not have to think to create this feeling of joy, for it was born in the act of giving. Giving to another, and even giving to yourself, is naturally human because it evokes a feeling of joy within us. When you feel this you know you have tapped into the feeling of your soul. This is beyond any thought and is not bound to any measure of time (for it is not dependent on any condition of the past or future - we may give and do good acts because we think it is the right thing to do and we then hope to get something out of it, but this is tied to time and conditions, for we feel that if we keep doing good things that good things will happen to us in the future...and whether or not this is true is of no relevance, because during these times we are bound to time, we are bound to the mind and we loose sight of the beauty and joy that we can feel in the right now!).

Sometimes we often feel as if we need to do the right thing because if we don't we are a "bad" person. Sometimes we feel we need to do the right thing in order to be right in the eyes of God, as if God is judging us and placing our entrance to "heaven" based on the contingency that we follow "his" plan. Are these actions not based in fear?

Witness this...what God, whom essentially is the movement of creation, could ever judge a thing that was created by itself? How could creation banish and judge the thing it has created itself without judging itself?

Do you not see...that you and I, the trees and rivers, and the stars in the sky are GOD! For we are all the movement that is life...This understanding of seeing yourself as "god-self" only comes to be when you realize that your choice is creation it self (which is born from the realm of duality, so bless the duality...)! Your choice, or lack thereof, is creative. Hence, we create as we live. The society we see is the accumulation of choices we have made in the past, but it is our choice right now to create whatever it is that we want that brings us into the now. Your life, our society, and the cosmos as a whole, are tied to this universal fact. That you are God, creating through the choices you choose. Yet, the "final" product of these choices, which is always is the NOW...is WHO WE ARE! So do not fear who you are, be excited that you are here now...choosing who you want to be!

Maybe through the creative process can we realize how tied we all are, how much of family that we really are! When I find myself awake to my perceptions, I bless the illusory separateness that I see between you and I...because I know, through this duality that we are able to experience one another...but it is the joy in my heart, that I feel through attending to you or attending to myself that makes me realize that on a very real experiential/feeling level...THAT WE ARE FAMILY. This is Love, is it not?

If someone acts in a way that we find offensive or hurtful, simply realize that this is their pain that is being projected onto you. There is pain in living in complete immersion in the duality (this is unconsciousness). There is an inherent pain, an inherent longing, in not being conscious of the feeling that we are all one. So, if someone acts in a way that you find disturbing, hurtful, or the like...realize that this comes from a place of pain within them...they do not remember who they are (RE-MEMBER)...they have not yet found there way into the light. Bless them for this is their journey too...Maybe you too can bring them into the light of love! This is our birthright through the universal re-membrance that we ARE ALL FAMILY...